Well tomorrow is my 20th birthday. I have a lot of thoughts inside of my mind. Usually on people's birthdays they say to make a wish. Here at College because I live on the Sparta Floor we Yellow Breeches Creek other people in. That means we throw them into the water. But this year my wish seems to be different. I have been through enormous amounts of thoughts and trials here. Luckily its not bad like it was last Semester. It is just that I am going to be learning and working harder than ever.

So following up on my last post I had mentioned about my laptop. Things seem to be worse and its causing me some stresses but in the long run it could be for the good of myself. Well IT Service on campus had called today and told me that my laptop wasn't working well. The cause was the motherboard that had been damaged in some ways. It is going to be shipped out and get fixed which means I'll have to be going to the Library a whole lot more than ever. But at the same time I get thoughts that I can focus more on my work. It seems as though so many things are happening because of my errors. But honestly, sometimes I am thinking that God showing me in some ways that I have to Learn to take control of my Own things and be More Responsible. He might also want me to concentrate more on my work. I haven't really been doing well in one of my classes and it could be at the most critical point if I keep sitting in front of my computer and not avoiding all temptations.

In College which I learned from the very start is that you are here to learn and work hard. I used to always think that it is freedom being away from home and your family. But its really a whole lot more than being away. Its to train you to be independent and work on things all by yourself. Here a lot of people work really hard to have good grades for the good of themselves in the future. It shows me that I should do it too. Life isn't always going to be as easy as I think I am. Now that I am going to be 20 people will seem to expect more out of me. I will definitely face a lot more challenges and my life could get changed forever. Whatever everything is like right now I guess I should just leave it all up to God. He will make all things work together for My Good.

Hey Everyone, I am surprisingly updating this Blog even though it was only 1 day after I updated it yesterday or you can say it the good way 2 days before I turn 20. That means I'll be living in the world for 2 decades already. I am surely learning more about the grown up stage. Glad I was learning about it back in High School starting from about the middle of Junior Year. At that time I had been learning how to get out of the whole self-centered stage but I am glad I got out of it and grew up a whole lot more. Even here at College I have grown up. But recently I had some stresses getting to me that I thought of writing about.

I had wrote yesterday on my Facebook saying "When some things don't seem to work such as computer stuff and other things God might be telling me to focus on whats more important and critical for my life." It feels to me that I should take control of my life. Well anyways I started to really have stresses when I wasn't doing well in a class. I have been working hard in maintaining my schedule and getting things done but not working hard enough at all. There had been a CCC Paper that I had to write that I hadn't gotten started on and worst off I wasn't doing well in Music Theory. I wasn't doing anything and being a real lazy bum. I was thinking that I don't want to get kicked out of College if I just fail a class and pass all others. But classes will keep getting tougher as College goes on. What really affected me a lot was that Sunday Night my Laptop wouldn't start up while I was researching on my notes for a class. Things got worse and the next day I brought my Laptop over to IT Services. They said that they were going to get back to me as soon as they had fixed it but till today I haven't heard word about it being fixed.

Not having a laptop does hit me a lot as I have to travel across campus with my bike to get to the library to get things done. But I realized that I had accomplished a lot in my academic work. I was getting a lot more done without my laptop such as the CCC Paper in which I already typed up more than half. I was also getting work done for Theory and my other classes that I have to work on. I had honestly gone onto Facebook way too much and like I was a few years ago being stupid and falling in for a ton of drama. And Yes, I blocked a couple of people whom I had enough of for good. Like what a few friends back at home had told me "You need to be yourself and NOT worry about what other people are like because you are NOT other people." I do agree that I am NOT everyone. I am glad I always chose to live the life myself not caring how late I was staying out and finding my own things to do. I feel like I am some how getting back on track and getting to where I am supposed to be. It feels complicated sometimes but it is really for the better. Needless to say maybe God had really been showing me that He wanted me to go back on Track before things get to the most critical point. Blog Readers hope to hear from how you all think!

This past week has been a long week despite how it was only 4 days of classes. Well this week is also goign to be 4 days of classes because on Thursday it is going to be Service Day. In fact that day is my Birthday and I will be in the world for 20 years already. Time surely does fly by fast. I always remember what my mom's dad had told my parents the day they were married that the next 40 years or so would fly by fast. At that time my parents laughed but he surely was telling the truth! I have been thinking of a lot of things recently and even some things I don't want to think about. I often think that oh man this year is coming to an end. Freshman Year surely did go by fast. I encountered a lot and course I changed probably for the better. I think that there really is a whole lot more in life than I thought there was. The 2nd Semester seems to be a lot tougher than the 1st Semester. The expectations are a lot more than before. It shows here that I should really improve more. Of course, I think that all majors really do have lots of differences in the schedules.

The weekend was a great weekend. I finally got time to take off to rest after a long week. Saturday, I worked at the Track Meet in which I am going to get paid. I helped with the Long Jump in which I measured the distance of the jumpers. They were basically going to run and jump into the sand where they would land. It was just hot out there for quite a long while. Worst off I didn't have my sunglasses because I left it in the Men's Apartments which was a bummer. Oh well it is already past now. But the Messiah College Track Team did really well in the meet. They accomplished the bunches of events that they needed to compete in. I worked over at the Long Jump for the Men and Women and measured where they landed. One of my friends Jayson Chu jumped a long one and made it pretty far. He was even on the Top 10. Other guys on my floor like Fred, Trevor, and Stock had did the throwing and according to what I heard they did a very good job on it. The rest of the day went well as I stayed there till 5 pm to show tons of support. This is the first Track Meet I've been to since High School. Later that same night there was a Men's Soccer Game and they beat the crap out of Bucknell University 3-1. That was a great way to end the long day. It got me exhausted but it was worth it.

Dang Its really been a long while since I've updated this Blog. I haven't updated it ever since I was home for Spring Break. Due to the fact I've been busy I needed to take sometime off from lots of things. Well to recap the past month Spring Break was great. It was good to see family but sadly I didn't get to see too many of my friends I really wanted to see. But it was also good to go back to Parsippany High School to visit. I was able to see some people I haven't seen in a while such as Ms. Yost and the Maxwell Twins who were at the Softball Field. It was a great visit as I was happy to be back. This was the 4th visit since Graduation. But other than that I've been on PHS Campus a couple of times since then. The school still looks the same as it did before on the outside. It brought back memories as usual. This might be my last visit in a very long time as I might not have the time to visit. But that Saturday to conclude my Spring Break I went to Rockaway Mall which is "My Meat" and finally saw it all again. As usual people from Hopatcong, Stanhope, Sparta, and Jefferson Twp go there. But it feels good when I see Parsippany people go. Parsippany Support Man! The day after that I had to go back to school and therefore said goodbye to my family and took the train back to school where I reunited with friends. It was bittersweet coming back again as I still miss home here and there sometimes.

The past few weeks were just Studying, Writing, Practicing Instruments, Working, and Riding my bike. I am so glad that my friends gave me their bikes to ride around campus especially since Climenhaga is so far away. It takes a while to get there sometimes. But I am not always doing well at school. I want to get my grades up and I toned down Social Life and made Sacrifices. Now I am just worried about my future for real. But the comforting thing was that I went to church this morning and the Pastor Preached a Sermon and showed a verse that hit me. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11. I guess I'll have to be sincere and leave it all up to God. I haven't really been doing well recently and was still upset over stupid things sometimes. I found out that I missed my dad so much recently because the 25th of March was 7 months since Move-In Day at College. Well I just hope that God provides and does some kind of a miracle that can help me survive.