I meant to want to update this a few days ago but I hadn't because its been a rough week. Things are often planned by people but don't always go as expected. As a result it often makes life complicated and frustrating. Well to begin with something with the Social Work department did not go as planned. It therefore got me frustrated. Suddenly the rougher patches began. Not only was it not as planned but the professors were giving me a hard time on some assignments I was doing. It was upsetting that it completely changed my mood. I was also not doing as well on some of the other issues in Field Placement which was making things worse. This then put me into a terrible mood and I was turning into something I was not. I even became so jealous of other people in the Social Work Department which was not a good thing and right now I still am and that is not good at all.

In the Social Work Department a majority of the people in the major are women. The ratio in the classes for men to women always seem to be 1:15 which is sometimes pressure. I am among the oldest in the class and one of the very few guys in the class which gets to be pressure point. I often feel that I have to do much better than everyone does in class and grade wise just because of being those. I can't even be in Honors Society nor get the kind of GPA that I wish for which sucks up. I had often been thinking that none of them had to go through what I went through Freshman Year in which I have not fully recovered from just yet. But it does not do me any good as I still envy others. Sometimes this comes a time where I will have to persevere. Real seriously I just thank some of my awesome friends for helping me through. I am slowly feeling better and will hopefully get through this.