July is now coming to an end. It feels like summer is really going by fast. There is just so much going on at the moment. Sometimes it feels like I wasted some time doing nothing but I still had my good times. Now its going to be August tomorrow. Ugh I can't believe that now I am going to have to go on to the next month. But before I talk about it there's a whole lot of memories in July that I wish to talk about.

I went down the shore about a week ago to be with my friends. Yes it was a great High School reunion down the shore. I hope that our 10 year High School Reunion gets held down the shore too. I had a lot of fun reuniting with the friends I seldom see anymore because of how we are getting on the very top of our lives. But overall it was a blast down there. I must tell all about it from the start because it is still fresh in my memory.

July 20- This was the day I was planning to ask my girl out but heartbrokened that she had dumped me. Oh well but anyways I travelled down the shore from Parsippany to Seaside Heights. I had been stuck in traffic for quite a while so it ended up taking me 3 hours to get down there. But I didn't really care because as long as I was going to be down there to see all my friends again thats what really mattered to me the most. I had to pay for parking down there and after I entered my friend's shore house I was relieved and partying with them all. I drank some that night and it was an okay feeling. I even went out for a walk when the house was getting really crowded and spent some time for myself. After the partying ended at about 3:30 am my friends pulled out a sofa bed for me to sleep in and I appreciated that part. I had a lot of fun for the first night but it tired me out and I was happy to be able to sleep for probably a few hours. I even acted out the best scene from A Cinderella Story which was a pretty funny one.

July 21- I woke up that morning at about 9 am because I needed to move my car to somewhere else by 10 am otherwise I would get it towed by owner's expense. I am glad I moved it out before any trouble was going to start otherwise I would've been screwed badly. But that morning everyone else woke up at a really late time. We all only slept less than 5 hours. We spent most of the time hanging around the house. I went to the boardwalk and stayed there for a while and walked back. I was in a lot of back pain that day and good thing we cleaned everything up that day. It was many hours before the night party was going to start. We were bbqing burgers and hot dogs and I ate a burger and it was good. Then after that we all went upstairs to hang out and afterwards we all fell asleep for quite a while. I took some pill to fix up my back and my back healed within 3 hours. It felt so much better and that night we partied and It was on. A lot of people were going to come in that night. I was around and enjoying myself but I missed home so I called home to see what was going on. It turned out my mom was having fun herself having been with friends. No wonder when I called home she didn't pick up. But that night I drank despite how I was missing home a lot. I had 2 shots of vodka and later on I chugged half a can of beer in front of everyone. After that I was really drunk and I couldn't function quite well at all. I couldn't even remember a conversation I had with a person. But luckily I was going to stay overnight that night because I wouldn't want to risk it trying to drive home all drunk otherwise I would have to be pulled over because of DWI or DUI. My mom wouldn't have wanted to drive down to rescue me at all. I stayed overnight again after the party was over and also packed quite a bit.

July 22- I woke up pretty early again because I had to move my car out of the parking lots by 10 am. I moved it to a parking spot where I had to throw quarters in. It was okay for me because I needed one. I moved some stuff to my car and hung out with everyone for a last time. They also had to paint the walls because of punching some walls broken. I chilled with everyone and acted out A Cinderella Story Scene to them then went to the boardwalk to get something to eat. After a while of hanging out we cleaned up and I packed up and it was time for me to go home so I said goodbye to them. But I didn't exactly go home yet because I wanted to explore Seaside Heights for a little bit. After a few minutes of exploring the good old Seaside I finally decided I would drive on home. It was a great time at Seaside and the scenery was beautiful as I loved it. Driving home was relaxing but I stopped at 2 rest stops due to being really tired. Then when I got home I was happy to be back again despite being so tired. Best time I ever had down there. I hope we go H-A-M again next year.

Man its July and still I barely update my blog. It is nearing the end of summer and yet I am still sitting around. But anyways there are a lot of things coming about at me. I just want to get through life and have unwanted thoughts get out. Its probably the reason why. But like what my friend had said I have control of my mind so I need to use it well. I need some time to just get through my life. I have the power to control myself and I know I can do it. I just have to seek some treatment for myself which will be good for me. I hope these thoughts can actually get out if I do my ways.

Well next post I have a whole ton of things to talk about. The summer is surely going by fast. It is much faster than I expected yet i already completed lots of things. Except for the fact that I don't have a job for the summer which really isn't good. I hopefully will be doing something soon because I want to be out of the house to interact with other people. It is much better if you have a resume showing you did things during the summers. I obviously want a job in the future get married and everything. But first off I need to have my life skills all done before I go on with that. What is shocking for me is that I haven't got to go to some places I wanted to go to yet. Hopefully it all happens soon as I can before I leave to go back to school. I love being with friends in both College and High School. Just going to be wanting to see them all again.

Man its been 2 weeks and no updates for such a long while. I figured i should definitely put something up. Well anyways July so far had its ups and downs. I have to get over some stupid thoughts that keep coming into my mind. The beginning of the month had started really well actually. We had gone on some good wonderful lasting long term memoried vacations. The first time I have gone on one with my family. Although it wasn't all of us I still had a great time. I was in Philadelphia for the Fourth of July days. This year was completely different from the years before because this year I wasn't biking through town.

Philadelphia Day 1 we drove over into Philadelphia from New Jersey where we had a ton of fun. We drove around taking a look and talking about memories all the way from our house to Philly. Then eventually we had more than a ton of fun going on from there. While at Philly we ate at the restaurant across the street from UPenn. Then we saw the Messiah College Philly Campus which was an awesome one because it was just in the city. But it is quite a distance from UPenn though. Maybe I'll go there in the future for classes. We later went to our hotel to rest up for a while before going on out to King of Prussia Mall which we went to shop and walk around and eat there. After all that we were very tired and went back to our comfortable hotel to sleep.

The next day we went off to explore around town and went to Eastern University. There it brought back quite a good amount of good memories for me as I was there for retreats. It wasn't such a big campus and I remember I was going to apply there some years back but I ended up not doing it because my dad wouldn't allow me to for personal reasons. After a while we drove on and we saw Villanova University which was surprisingly not too far from Eastern. It was also a great campus too. Later we returned to Philadelphia and attended a street fair which was quite a blast because of the fun that we were having despite how it was so hot. After staying there for about 3 hours we headed home and yes we were pretty tired. But overall it was a great trip. Now the past 2 weeks I've been just sitting around and chilling and working out a whole lot. Hopefully I can lose more weight by the end of this summer. I can't wait for more to come and I can't wait to see more of my friends again.